Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Look In the Mirror!

The world is your mirror. It was about two years ago that I was trying to help a friend clean out the junk in his room in preperation to going on his mission.
"What about these car sterio speakers? .. They look broken, this is garbage right?"
It was pretty obvious by the expression that came over his face that this was not an option. Old papers, letters, ticket stubs, boxes, electric wires, car parts, and plain old garbage FILLED his room. Hardly a place to step, we worked for hours trying to fill boxes and clear out his room. After many attempts to convince him that he didn't need to hold onto so much of this stuff, I got frusterated! I almost cried. Why was HIS stuff triggering me so much?? This isn't mine! Why did I care so much about his junk??
After pondering my feelings, and being trained to seperate ME from other people, I realized that all his junk (and how it was triggering me almost to tears) was only a reflection of my 'internal' junk that I was un-willing to throw out! In that moment in time I was realizing some things about myself! Sometimes it is a challenge to look at yourself and see your role in a situation.
How do you know if you need to look inside yourself? If you are over-reacting to a situation or conversation (or whatever it may be) you need to look at why this is triggering you so much! It is almost like you need to use your very logical mind (without the feelings involved) to be a third party in the situation and analyse if you are reacting to something that isn't really there!! It is possible that you are making the situation way bigger than it actually is. That is because our past emotions are usually involved with present time, causing a filter to make things look like they are one way... when they really aren't!
have a great day! Strive for enlightenment!
Lesa

0 comments: